A Love Letter

Going through the process of divorce has been taxing and trying both emotionally and spiritually. I have felt that the failure of my marriage has become a defining factor, that it disqualifies me in many ways. It seemed too big of a thing to overcome. But, all of those things were lies from the enemy. […]

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Death Without a Funeral

Silence: It screams. It yells. It  hurts. It is a reminder of the brokenness, the loss, and the hurt caused by divorce. Silence has a feeling, it’s heavy, it’s sorrowful, it feels unbearable. In the silence I can feel the broken pieces of my heart. Those broken pieces are wrecked by abandonment, shattered by deception, […]

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I hate divorce

I sit here while in the process of going through a divorce and this scripture keeps coming to mind: “And the two will become one flesh. So they are no longer two, but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let no one separate” Mark 10:8-9. It comes to mind to explain the hurt […]

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It Takes Three

My heart is broken. I have random times of being angry, of feeling hurt, of being sad and crying. My emotions seem to change with the wind. The smallest reminder can cause me to move from a place of happiness to a place of sadness, or anger, or a combination. It has not been an […]

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I’m Still Here

This part of my story is hard for me to share. It’s a piece that I have quite a bit of shame and it is still very raw. But, I was at a concert and Mandisa shared her story and reminded me that God uses everything and has a plan for not just the good, […]

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Take 5

In ten days it will be 5 years since the night that I was raped and I am in a completely different place than I was 5 years ago. I recently had the opportunity to be part of a project that shows just how far I have come, an opportunity because of keeping a blog […]

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Impacts of PTSD

PTSD overflows into all areas of life at times. Things that trigger a flashback can be unknown and other times they are known. It can seem like things are going well and then, what seems out of no where, it all flares back up again. Unfortunately, PTSD knows no limits and creates uncontrollable responses. Lately, […]

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